You might have thought I disappeared since my last post, but I’ve actually been embracing life with someone new and finding happiness. I’ve made the tough decision to distance myself from people who I initially believed were good for me, only to discover they were weighing me down.

One of the hardest realizations I faced was that Dom, who had supported me during my lowest moments, may not be the person I need in my life forever. With the guidance of my therapist and friends, I’ve come to understand that while someone can be beneficial in one chapter of your life, they can also evolve into a negative presence in another.

I’m grateful for his support, but over time, our relationship became toxic, leaving me in tears after our conversations. Now that I’ve distanced myself, I’ve come to see that he wasn’t as kind as I once believed. Perhaps I idealized him due to my BPD. Nonetheless, I genuinely wish him well and hope he figure himself out.

But enough about him… I met someone new! His name is Michael, and I can confidently say that he’s my person. From the moment we started talking, I felt a genuine connection that I’ve rarely experienced since Blaine. He’s everything I can ask for in a partner. He gives me reassurance whenever I have any doubts, always knowing just the right words to calm my mind. He listens, offering valuable insights and perspectives that make our conversations deeply engaging. We share the same values and it’s incredibly refreshing to know that we’re on the same page regarding the important things in life. Overall, he never disrespects me; instead, he treats me with the utmost kindness and respect, which makes me feel cherished and valued in our relationship. Every moment spent together only reaffirms my belief that I’ve found someone truly special. I love him 🙂

Over the past 6 months, we’ve done so many things together! I’ve met his family, and he met mine (kinda). We went to Wonderland, went to my cousin’s wedding, celebrated Christmas and Valentine’s Day together, and even enjoyed a fantastic cruise with his family! Each of these experiences has brought us closer, and above all, there are those little things that I truly enjoy doing with him. I stayed over at his place quite often, where he cooks delicious meals, and I take care of the cleaning. We watch shows together, immerse ourselves in gaming, and even go grocery shopping side by side, making it a fun outing. In the beginning, I would write him handwritten letters to express how I feel, pouring my heart into each note, hoping they brought a smile to his face. These moments, both grand and simple, have created a beautiful tapestry of memories that I cherish deeply. I look forward to all the adventures awaiting us in the future!